I previously wrote that I was having a meltdown. I had a disastrous day and I was feeling pretty sorry for myself on Wednesday. Well, I have learned over the last couple of days that this behavior is not okay, and I also learned you cannot trust anyone.. someone who may seem like your best friend or you may consider your sister, is in fact your enemy.
So I had my bad day, I deleted facebook, I only vented to a select 4 people, people whom I thought I could trust. It wasn’t even anything bad, consisted of the usual “I can’t do this anymore” “How did my life get to be so horrible” “I need help” Things of this nature.. now most people who know me SHOULD know that this is just a phase, this is me venting and letting out all my pent up conflictions and getitng them off my chest so things do not get worse. It allows me to recoup. When I was venting I was by myself, both girls were at school!
Well, someone called the police on me wednesday night and sent them to my house (at 10:30pm) to check on the welfare of my children. We were all sleeping so I never answered the door, and honeslty, til Thursday afternoon I had ZERO clues that they were even at my house! I called the police department and they said they were sent there to check on my kids. Well, good job buddy because you knocked twice and walked away.. good thing it was me, someone who is NOT going to ever harm their child, but what if it had been someone who would have?
This same person didn’t leave it there either. Thursday they called children and youth. I came home from work to a letter that they were stopping by for a home visit (I still had no idea what was going on at this point) I called her back and left a message to wait to see what was going on. She called me yesterday morning asking if she could come by and speak to me. Uh sure. So we scheduled for her to come when I get home from work at 3:30pm.
This is where it gets interesting. I am making the girls an after school snack, and the doorbell rings.. we go to answer it. Lylah says “I know her, I talked to her in Miss Karen’s office at school!” uhh excuse me? Yup, that’s right folks.. children and youth went to both girl’s schools and pulled them out of class to sit down and ask them questions. mmmHmmm still annoyed. She asks me if I know why she is there. I told her I had my suspicions that my friend (we shall call her Alex) had called because we had gotten into a tiff after I vented to her. I then said that I assumed she was there because the police could not get ahold of me so she was following up, nope, not the case. She wasn’t even aware the police were ever at my house. She tells me they got a call that I was trying to get rid of my children, and I was a danger to myself and I was going to harm my kids because I was done being a mom. Ha! Haha! Haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! (ok sorry) I obviously tell her that is absurd.
We then got to talking and I told her honestly, sometimes I get frustrated with Lylah when she throws her fits, esp when she keeps me up at night and then has them the next day. I get tired, I get frustrated, but I would NEVER result to violence towards my children, they are my world and I love them more than my own life!
The outcome of all this… Children and Youth is in our lives for the next 60 days. I have to take Lylah to get evaluated again, and she will get me whatever referrals I need (which is a plus) but I have these people prying into my life, can show up whenever they feel like it, for the next 2 months! When the 60 days is coming to a closing, if they feel confident that everything is resolved and okay in my household then they will close the case. 0_o
#1 I feel betrayed. his person was (WAS) my best friend. Best friend. My kids called her Aunt *Alex*. Our kids love each other. I am soooo heart broken. How could she do this to me? Who does this to someone? (obviously she does) and she made it so obvious.. she deleted me and my mom off facebook and then blocked me.
#2 Way to go police officers.. glad to know it is reported that children’s lives are in danger and you just knock and walk away! lol
#3 I am very saddened that CYS’ resources are being wasted on me. I don’t need them in my life, I don’t want them in my life, there are FAR more people that NEED their intervention, but here they are! Prying into the world of Jenn!
Lesson learned: You cannot trust everyone! She will never be in my life again, as long as I shall live and I give ANYONE permission to smack me silly if I even talk about it!
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